Your right, I dosen't get rid of the guilt, but it helps aleviate it. You can't keep letting what you did while under Boaz's control devour you Cee. I won't let it. That wasn't you, that was somone else, and that person is no longer here. It devours me only because it’s still there, Ben. And becaus...

There have been recent messages suggesting that I retain a hope that someday a cure might be found for my vampirism. This has weighed heavily on my mind, and I have struggled to express my thoughts on the matter. Seemingly, quite by accident, I had an urge to Recall a memory from my youth. It was a...

This thread has been forgotten for entirely too long, and I feel it is one of those that shouldn’t be. I realize that some people we must not claim as dead, those like Huntress and Willie and others . . . but what about those we know are dead? Ron, whatever happened to PSC27 and his work? Has he ha...

Don't ever give up hope...not when I'm around, anyway. Hope . . . is something I don’t really care about, Konthaak. However, offering hope to other people . . . now that I wish to never lose. I leave no expectation for myself; in that way, I will never be disappointed. If such a thing happened agai...

That is the reason I don't call myself a Christian, anymore... Not because I don't follow his teachings. Because I don't follow his followers' teachings. If you follow Christ’s teachings, you are a Christian. And if you don’t, you aren’t. If the church’s who profess to follow him don’t . . . they a...

As an LEO in Bangor I had to shoot and kill a 14 year old kid with a Mac-10 that tried to shoot me. With one shot I dropped him. It was self-defense, I was doing my job. It doesn't change the fact that a 14 year old kid threw his life away and that I was the one who had to take out the trash. Was I...

I just wanted to thank all those who have helped me throughout my tenure here. Your thoughts and efforts have given me much to think about. While turning back into a human may be impossible, I am beginning to think that “living” again is not. Willie Long was the one who first told me that, but it h...

Holister wrote:No it won't. I will just lock her in her room until she's 21 then get her her own place.

I will have something to say about that, Ben. And I am sure she will as well.

Agreed. And Hannah, if you think women dress strangely during the day . . . good for you. It is refreshing to know there is at least one other female raises her eyebrows at the fashions of the day. As for the men . . . I cannot say. Their minds are a mystery to me. They stared at me as a human, the...

I do love flowers. Orchids and geraniums especially, though I enjoy tulips, irises, lilacs and . . . well, let us say I’ve learned to like many others. Of course, caring for them and enjoying them are two entirely different things. I never learned how to take care of them, and they seem to wilt in ...

Hannah wrote:I'm just a girl.

No, Hannah. You are most definitely not “just” a girl. Remember to put the “special” after the “a” to that statement. Anyone that can make Ron smile is unique.

Joshua . . . Yeshua . . . Jehovah: savior of Humankind. Yes, I realize you are not a Christian, Konthaak, but the connotation is still there: a man believed to be a God, a man who supposedly rescued Humanity from sins and death, a man who supposedly gave hope to the Earth. True or false, it does no...

Interesting that you gave the cripple my name, Celeste. I know it pry wasn't intentional, but I always find it interesting to see how people think of my name... I didn’t intentionally name him after you, thought I did intentionally name him Joshua. It has interesting . . . connotations to its meani...

Since I have been . . . unable . . . to follow the others to the rescue of Ben, I have put my time to other use: Ron has his hands full raising Hannah and learning to be a father . . . so I take his place and keep his streets safe. I have taken to watching a family some ways from Ron’s hotel abode ...

Hello Ms. Darken. Celeste is a pretty name. Can I call you Celeste? Of course. Are you pretty like your name? I've met a bunch of really pretty women since I left the compound. Natasha and Rose and Seraph and Rain. I . . . well . . . I guess it depends on what the men think, but I have been describ...

Don't torture him too long Loki. only gives the others a chance o recue him. Kill him nbow!!! Dude Shangster, just cut off his hjead with your sharpies. THEN pray for him. Deathblaster . . . just whose side are you on, anyway? You make no sense, you spout off at everyone, you offer no aid to others...

Bert_the_Turtle wrote:And, uhhh, Holister and yer Dad don't really see eye to eye on very many things.

To say the least. But I think they try . . . more or less.