I think I am losing it....
I think I am losing it....
Earlier today I was at a club I own to disscuse some repairs and remodling with a contractor. I was attacked by a unseen foe, I had to try and protect the poor contractor. I managed to keep fronm using too much magic in the process of staying alive, at least any thing visible or flashy. I had to block away the memory of the fight from the gentleman to prevent any issues with the police or a visit from the county mental health department. Again I saw the same person in a mirror just to my side as I was finishing the fight with the thing.
I am really worried now.... how can a mage be a mage if they are not sane? How do I know I am not going to become a threat to people I know?
Michael.
I am really worried now.... how can a mage be a mage if they are not sane? How do I know I am not going to become a threat to people I know?
Michael.
Beware the monster within, least it escape and take over your life.
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What is the basic impression of this reflection?
I wouldn’t know, Michael. I haven’t had much experience in magical knowledge. What is the basic impression of this reflection?
Sometimes the only thing to be done is to feel one’s way through the darkness.
Re: I think I am losing it....
When you openly ponder your sanity, it's time to seek a professional opinion.
I'm available.
Or I can give you a list of phone numbers of trusted colleagues to deal with demons...
The healthy way.
I'm available.
Or I can give you a list of phone numbers of trusted colleagues to deal with demons...
The healthy way.
Question everything.
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Re: I think I am losing it....
Michael T, if you need help please ask. You have friends willing to help, and perhaps able to as well.
You can find answers in the Dark places.
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The feeling I get from the reflection is dread... I can't go into more detail yet it's too painful. I... I just don't know what to belive right now.
It can't be Jess... can it?
It can't be Jess... can it?
Beware the monster within, least it escape and take over your life.
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Re: I think I am losing it....
Michael I can be by to talk if you wish shortly?
Who knows maybe I can look into whatever it could be that is haunting you?
Who knows maybe I can look into whatever it could be that is haunting you?
To find the darkness you have walk in the shadows.
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Re: I think I am losing it....
You can always call and chat Michael, should you need any help.
Konrad Andreas is at peace. I am something new.
WWVLD
WWVLD
Re: I think I am losing it....
I don't know what I can do for you, man, but I'm here...
I am not A bitch...I am THE bitch. And to you, I'm MS Bitch.
Re: I think I am losing it....
You know various standard and nonstandard methods for contacting me.
I'm busy but never too busy to help a friend and mentor.
Call anytime.
I'm busy but never too busy to help a friend and mentor.
Call anytime.
Наташа Крылова .:. Natasha Krilova
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Jess . . .? Who is Jess?
Jess . . .? Michael, is this something that you feel you should resolve yourself? Can Joi help you?
Sometimes the only thing to be done is to feel one’s way through the darkness.
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I don't want to drag Joi into this... I could not live with myself if she got hurt. I have sent a message to some one here to come talk... I hope I am just stressed or some thing. I don't want to think of what I could do if I were not in control.
Michael T.
Michael T.
Beware the monster within, least it escape and take over your life.
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Refusing aid is a disservice . . .
You may not want to drag her, Michael, but she may be willing to push herself. Refusing to accept perfectly valid aid is a disservice to the one offering it. But, if you already have help . . .
Sometimes the only thing to be done is to feel one’s way through the darkness.
Re: I think I am losing it....
Michael T wrote:I don't want to drag Joi into this... I could not live with myself if she got hurt. I have sent a message to some one here to come talk... I hope I am just stressed or some thing. I don't want to think of what I could do if I were not in control.
Michael T.
Too late Micheal, it seems "a ghost" has thrown down the gauntlet... I'm in it one way or the other.... Eilonwy is on the mark there.
Joi
survival at the cost of a friend is not survival