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Revelations By Ben Holister
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 5:01 pm
by Holister
Greetin's Everybody
Well I'm all situated in my new place. The contractor gave the key on Monday and I just finished movin' in all my stuff.
I'm sorry it took Derik a while to hook everything up.
But I kind f wanted to get Molly situated first in her room and get some of the more important things done first.
Speakin' of which. I have started my anger management courses last night. Once a week for six weeks. I hope it helps.
I only have had three beers since I got back, been substitutin' the beer with Diet Pepsi. Kelly over at The Brick thought I was ill when I asked for that instead of a Black Rabbit. By the way Bert, Kelly wants to get together with you soon. Wants to know who this Natasha person is.
(Im stayin' out of it
)
I also got to take care of some back cases, close them, even got back to my old routine around here up at the cove. Molly is appy to be home, so is Duke.
Here's the deal though. I know I'm not cut out to be a Lazlo member. Hell, I'ld look at myself in the mirror and think "Who am I kidding I ain't no hero. I'm a frickin' jack ass is what I am. "
Now though, I know better. Molly really needs me, and Im in a job where some crack head with a 9MM and no common sense can take me out. She needs a father, and I couldn't do that to her.
Chasin' monsters all over the country doesn't help matters either. I'll leave that to he real heroes; which is you guys.
I must admit Im a bit evious of some of you, like Ron, KT, Bert, Shadow, you all have your thing, and day after day; night adter night you guys stick your neck out on the line so that good folks can sleep well at night.
Truth also be tod, I didn't quit "B.B.", Del Caine relieved me due to the fact I failed my psyche profile. Said I had "temperment issues" and that I repressed alot of stuff. They were right. I did.
Not any more.
I am, and always will be a LEO, that is what I was meant to do; "Serve & Protect". I just can't do it in the same way as you guys. Im just a redneck country hicksheriff that shoots off his mouth, shoot soff his gun, I almost ruined my life in one big BANG.
So, what I want to say is thanks for everything. I know you guys can go on without me around to slow ya' down. If any of you fellas are in Maine, stop by town, The Brick is always open, and I wouldn't mind seein' ya'll again.
PS: Celeste, if you see this. I mailed something special to you, that I want you to have. It belonged to my mother, I think she'ld really have liked you to have it. Thank you for everything too. You made me feel important for once in my life (to someone other than Molly).
See ya'll around.
Happy Huntin'
Over & out...
Ben . . .
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 5:08 pm
by Celeste Darken
. . . are you sure about this, Ben? I'm certain that you are not the only one that feels . . . uncomfortable, hunting the supernatural. Are you sure this is the right decision you are making? Remember, even if you turn your back on them . . . they will not turn their back on you.
Be careful.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 5:14 pm
by Shadowstalker
Keep in touch Ben just because you stay home does not mean you are out of the fight. If you ever need help just call.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 5:26 pm
by Bert_the_Turtle
Ok, I was going to say prettymuch the same thing as Cee and Shadow. "Don't disappear from the boards Ben, just because you're not actively hunting the Supernatural doesn't mean it'll leave you alone."
Anyhow, I think this is a good choice for you to make right now. Just keep in touch, and I expect all of ya to come down in August.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 5:39 pm
by Kolya
You have made the correct choice Ben. Take care of yourself, and Molly. She really needs you.
But that does not mean you have to be a stranger.
Or let your guard down, which I know you won't.
We will stay in touch, especially Natasha. She really wants to meet you, the dog, rabbits, Molly, a guy named Carter and another guy Jasper (?), and she mumbled something about camping.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 10:44 pm
by KonThaak
I hope I can make that decision, soon... Not that I ever intend to leave the Society or the boards; just the decision to stay home with my family, do the job I love doing, and just...well, not have to run halfway across the planet to take care of what needs taking care of... I know it's putting a strain on the relationship with my wife...
One last mission, and then I'm retiring from adventuring, too...
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 10:52 pm
by Bert_the_Turtle
Well, KT, I don't ever see you quitting totally. Maybe sticking to your own backyard and not gallavanting around the country, but not quitting entirely.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 11:05 pm
by Shang Li
Best of luck in that endeavor, Mr. Holister, KonThaak. I hope you both discover the peace you seek. If there is anything I can do to help, I will be glad to do so.
Mr. Holister, I am having a small token sent to you, a picture of the cherry grove outside the temple where I was raised in full bloom, Fuji in all her glory in the background.
KonThaak, an old Noh mask I used to wear for theater practice.
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2007 11:11 pm
by KonThaak
I'm not out yet...and yes, Bert, you're right. I'll just be sticking to my backyard, so to speak, and giving advice here on the forums. As I've said, I won't be leaving the society or the boards. I may be done traveling and putting my life on the line (almost), but I'm not done helping people, and I won't be until I die.
And depending on what lies Beyond and Between, maybe not even then.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:12 am
by Bert_the_Turtle
And you guys better be coming down to the shore in August with yer families or I'll go and drag you back to NJ myself
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 8:46 am
by Kolya
KonThaak wrote:One last mission, and then I'm retiring from adventuring, too...
Good for you KT!
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 8:47 am
by Kolya
KonThaak wrote:I'm not out yet...and yes, Bert, you're right. I'll just be sticking to my backyard, so to speak, and giving advice here on the forums. As I've said, I won't be leaving the society or the boards. I may be done traveling and putting my life on the line (almost), but I'm not done helping people, and I won't be until I die.
And depending on what lies Beyond and Between, maybe not even then.
You are a valuable member, that is certain.
Good that you are not retiring completely.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 12:26 pm
by Deathblaster
Why is everybody leaving so suddenly? What do I have bad breath? *sniffs armpit* And you guy are congrateulatung theem! what's the deal with that? I mean HELLO! Just because you close your eyes doesn't mean the problems will go away. Trust me, IU know. i tried it on my mom when I was younger.
Doesn't work guys. get a clue!
Personal Decision
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 12:29 pm
by Celeste Darken
I is not your . . . body odor . . . “Deathblaster.” It is a personal decision of theirs. Do not mock such choices.
Re: Personal Decision
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 12:30 pm
by Deathblaster
Celeste Darken wrote:I is not your . . . body odor . . . “Deathblaster.” .
wELL that's a relief. He thought that bad of your date huh?
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 12:31 pm
by DarKnyht
We are congratulating them because they deserve some rest. They and we know things aren't going to just go away, but we all are also very aware we are not immortal. Eventually, you have to step aside and be content to teach/advise while younger and more able people hunt.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 12:34 pm
by Deathblaster
Huh. Whatever. I think theyu're just scared.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:03 pm
by Bert_the_Turtle
O_o o_O
Please, PLEASE turn out to be evil. You deserve an ass kicking for that comment.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:06 pm
by Razor
Deathblaster, most of these guys are veterans of several years, and well... Most of them are running out of the 'gas' to run and gun everywhere, and both of them are family men. I'm sure if the family wasn't part of the equation, they wouldn't be taking a step back.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:17 pm
by Ron Caliburn
Ben, being an LEO is as important a job as the one we do here on the Society. They fight the evil within mankind so that good peopel cna sleep peacefully. You aren't retiring so much as changing specialities.
I hope this change helps you. But again, don't disappear from the boards. Folksneed advice, need information and a good swift kick from time to time.
KonThaak, in the few months between our meetings, I've seen how much . . . life . . . has been sucked out of you. Go be a father and husband for a while. I almost wish I wasn't dragging you out on this last adventure. I wish I could tell you to stay home.
Deathblaster, these two have the scars, physical and mental, to warrent their decisions. Not all of us are unbalanced enough to keep at this forever.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:30 pm
by Kolya
Deathblaster wrote:And you guy are congrateulatung theem! what's the deal with that?
They will do more good that way. They have families and people to tend to. Taking care of them is the right choice.
Deathblaster wrote:ust because you close your eyes doesn't mean the problems will go away.
Who is closing their eyes?
They are changing their focus to more immediate and more important jobs. That is all.
No one is leaving.
No one is closing their eyes.
No one is doing anything wrong or unwise.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:32 pm
by Kolya
Deathblaster wrote:Huh. Whatever. I think theyu're just scared.
New kid on the block.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:33 pm
by Kolya
Bert_the_Turtle wrote:O_o o_O
Please, PLEASE turn out to be evil. You deserve an ass kicking for that comment.
Try to be less antagonistic
Re: Personal Decision
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 1:35 pm
by Kolya
Deathblaster wrote:Celeste Darken wrote:I is not your . . . body odor . . . “Deathblaster.” .
wELL that's a relief. He thought that bad of your date huh?
Language barrier or am I the only one that has no idea what this means?
You think Holister's "date" did something wrong to him?
Personal Choice
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 2:36 pm
by Celeste Darken
Well, most of my thoughts have been posted by others. But since we are talking to someone going by the moniker “Deathblaster,” I can only suppose reinforcement of previous posts can only help.
“Scared,” Deathblaster? No, not scared. Anyone that has read about the things Konthaak and Ben have gone through know they do not let their fears bar them from action. Say rather, they are concerned. Concerned for their families. They are parents, first and foremost.
Re: Personal Decision
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 2:42 pm
by Deathblaster
Okay, okay, so they have wifes and tiny tots. Big deak. I would yhink that they would do better protecting there fams from the monsters before some werwolf gobbles tem up. but anyway.
Kolya wrote:You think Holister's "date" did something wrong to him?
Um how can I put this delicately?
DUH!?
Hello! The dork is dating a VAMPIRE! I mean, do I onhestly have to spell this out toa Rusky? i mean, ya have to be demented in the head to date a dead girl in the first place, doncha? But one tht possibly
bites back?
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 3:29 pm
by Holister
Thanks for the well wishes guys. I really appreciate them.
KT, I didn't know you were pseudo retiring too, maybe we should have a joint pseudo- retirement party
When you get back from helping out Ron of course.
Seriously though KT, good luck man. Family does come first, Im sure that Alexis and your son (whose name keeps escaping me) willbe happy to have you around more. I know that Molly is thrilled to have me around more too.
Well, I got to get back to the station house. They're rewiring the break room and I wanted to give them a hand.
Talk to ya'll later.
Re: Personal Decision
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 3:32 pm
by Kolya
I was not aware they were dating.
Yes, spell it out, so I know exactly what you are saying. Otherwise I might assume something.
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 7:02 pm
by KonThaak
Ron: Hey, man, don't worry about this one. It'll be a refreshing change of pace from the shit I've been going through recently, and it'll be good for me to quasi-retire on a high note.
DB: Don't worry, I'm sure there're still plenty of monsters for me to take care of in Chicagoland. If nothing else, I'll pry have to deal with Windner again in the fall.
Ben: Hey, pseudo-retirement party sounds great to me. XD Since I've got plans for my next week of vacation, let's plan it for the vacation week after that... Which would be...the week starting May 7.
Everyone else: Thank you all for your well-wishings. ^_^ It's been awesome working with you; I look forward to doing what I can to help y'all in the future--FROM HOME. Or somewhere in the vicinity thereof, anyway.
Be sure to come and visit!
Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 8:28 pm
by Kolya
Hopefully my next trip to Chicago will not be top secret.