Black-Eyed Children
Posted: Wed Oct 15, 2008 6:27 pm
_____Hi guys. This happened several weeks ago, a couple of days after Ethan disappeared. I was reminded of it when I read Mr. DarKnyht’s message. And I probably ought to post my encounter. I’m putting it under Agency Voice because nothing really happened, and it didn’t really feel very warlike.
_____But a fight could have happened if they had chosen to.
_____And it still felt like it had turned my blood into green gelatin.
_____ Painted yellow lines broke the field of concrete, and tattered hemp nets hung from the top of spotted and flecked hoops. The sun was shining brightly overhead, and my hair puffed out from the light wind. I was still hiding from the men in sunglasses that had taken Ethan in my dreams, though I had not seen any of them since I ran away and searched all the safe houses he had told me about and shown me. Confusion and fear made an odd mix in my belly, creating an odd taste in my mouth. The men in sunglasses knew about every house, and I had narrowly escaped getting caught myself.
_____I guess the houses hadn’t been so safe. So I had sat in the corner of a concrete field some distance away, with my hands in my pockets and resting my shoulders on a portion of the wooden fence that didn’t have as many splinters; I was pondering on the course I might take now that I was alone. The houses I had checked were stationed with men in sunglasses, and I felt that they ought not to see me. This was a place with balanced emotions; some happy, some not; I spent the morning in contemplation of what I might do, and the sun was riding high before I heard the rubber soles of sneakers squeak on the concrete.
_____“Do you want to play?”
_____I looked up to the voice; it was younger than mine, and the boy it belonged to was likewise younger and smaller than me, or so it appeared. He was dressed in baggy blue levis and a red sweater several sizes too big, with the hoodie pulled up over his eyes and face. His right hand jounced up and down, a basketball bouncing to his motions.
_____I glanced around nervously; the concrete field had suddenly become meeting home to many children coming in through a large space in the fence; all of them were wearing the same version of clothes as the boy who had spoken to me, just differently colored sweaters and hoodies.
_____“Do you want to play?” they asked, the balls in their hands going up and down in rhythmic patterns, untimed to each other. “Do you want to play?” they repeated over and over as they came in through the fence, placing themselves periodically all around me, closing in. “Do you want to play?”
_____“Stop!” I commanded, holding my palm out.
_____They stopped, all except the lead one, the one in front of me, the one wearing the red hoodie. He was so close he could touch me if he held out his hand. But he didn’t, bouncing the ball in his right hand instead, slowly and deliberately.
_____“Are you frightened of us?” he asked calmly, raising his chin. “You should be, you know.” A jagged shard of ice seemed to lodge in my throat as he looked at me. His eyes were completely black, darker than coal, duller than despair. For the faintest of breaths, his gaze reminded me of Eilonwy’s.
_____but then I threw the thought away immediately; Eilonwy didn’t have any eyes; but the darkness of her gaze was warm and inviting, an offering of peaceful sleep and friendship. But the darkness of his . . . their . . . eyes . . . was . . . were wrong. They had eyes, yes; but I wished they didn’t. Unlike Eilonwy and Mr. Ron and Miss Sarah and Hannah, they didn’t have souls. I could see it in their blank, stony looks. I don’t know if they had ever been human, I thought as I backed up a step. But I didn’t feel any desire to help them.
_____“You didn’t answer my question,” the red hoodied boy sneered, slamming his ball harder against the pavement. “I asked if you were scared. I asked if you wanted to play.”
_____“No,” my answer came immediately. My hands shifted, and I was alarmed to see the shadow creeping across the concrete field like clouds covering the entire city. The sun was still bright overhead, but its rays would not touch us.
_____“You should,” he scorned. “It’d be much easier that way.” I whipped my gaze to the children to my right and left. The balls were still bouncing in their hands, heartbeats hammering through chests. They clustered slowly together as if on the defensive. Hatred and bloodlust were stamped with each leap of each ball, the leather striking the concrete like sharpened knives stabbing into living flesh.
_____“We’ll make you a deal,” he started.
_____“No deals,” anger coiled and hissed in my chest, hot and searing and unfamiliar. I felt an urge to lash out at these . . .things masquerading as human children. Nothing good could come from associating with them. For a moment, I thought he nodded once, his chin tucked to his skinny chest and tilted to the side. It took another moment for me to realize his hesitance was due to his attention being focused elsewhere.
_____On me.
_____Because my hands were glowing; smoldering like hot coals. A roiling, rumbling drumroll was beating in my ears.
_____“You stay out of our way and we’ll stay out of yours,” the red hoodied boy offered as though I had agreed to listen to his terms. “It doesn’t have to come to a war. If we fight, it’ll probably end with all our deaths.”
_____“Get out of here,” I growled. They retreated, one by one.
_____“It doesn’t have to be this way,” he repeated, though he drew silent when a figure—a grownup—ambled through the space in the fence. Thankfully, my hands dimmed.
_____“Everything okay, you two?” he asked; I wondered why he didn’t say anything about the half dozen plus children slipping under his arm as he rested it on the fence; maybe they were like the black cat and the snake with wings.
_____The red hoodied boy nodded and paused next to the man, considering him with a mean look in his black eyes. When the boy looked back at me, with my eyes narrowed and my hands still fisted but not glowing, he left with the rest of the kids, bouncing his ball as we went along.
_____“Everything all right, young lady?” the man asked in concern, watching me. “You look angry.”
_____The shadow across the concrete field was already dissipating. I nodded and tried to smile. “Yes, thank you. Have a nice day, sir.”
_____But now I have a question for you guys, I guess. Now that I think about it again. What do you think happened there on the concrete field? What were they? The children, I mean?
_____But a fight could have happened if they had chosen to.
_____And it still felt like it had turned my blood into green gelatin.
_____ Painted yellow lines broke the field of concrete, and tattered hemp nets hung from the top of spotted and flecked hoops. The sun was shining brightly overhead, and my hair puffed out from the light wind. I was still hiding from the men in sunglasses that had taken Ethan in my dreams, though I had not seen any of them since I ran away and searched all the safe houses he had told me about and shown me. Confusion and fear made an odd mix in my belly, creating an odd taste in my mouth. The men in sunglasses knew about every house, and I had narrowly escaped getting caught myself.
_____I guess the houses hadn’t been so safe. So I had sat in the corner of a concrete field some distance away, with my hands in my pockets and resting my shoulders on a portion of the wooden fence that didn’t have as many splinters; I was pondering on the course I might take now that I was alone. The houses I had checked were stationed with men in sunglasses, and I felt that they ought not to see me. This was a place with balanced emotions; some happy, some not; I spent the morning in contemplation of what I might do, and the sun was riding high before I heard the rubber soles of sneakers squeak on the concrete.
_____“Do you want to play?”
_____I looked up to the voice; it was younger than mine, and the boy it belonged to was likewise younger and smaller than me, or so it appeared. He was dressed in baggy blue levis and a red sweater several sizes too big, with the hoodie pulled up over his eyes and face. His right hand jounced up and down, a basketball bouncing to his motions.
_____I glanced around nervously; the concrete field had suddenly become meeting home to many children coming in through a large space in the fence; all of them were wearing the same version of clothes as the boy who had spoken to me, just differently colored sweaters and hoodies.
_____“Do you want to play?” they asked, the balls in their hands going up and down in rhythmic patterns, untimed to each other. “Do you want to play?” they repeated over and over as they came in through the fence, placing themselves periodically all around me, closing in. “Do you want to play?”
_____“Stop!” I commanded, holding my palm out.
_____They stopped, all except the lead one, the one in front of me, the one wearing the red hoodie. He was so close he could touch me if he held out his hand. But he didn’t, bouncing the ball in his right hand instead, slowly and deliberately.
_____“Are you frightened of us?” he asked calmly, raising his chin. “You should be, you know.” A jagged shard of ice seemed to lodge in my throat as he looked at me. His eyes were completely black, darker than coal, duller than despair. For the faintest of breaths, his gaze reminded me of Eilonwy’s.
_____but then I threw the thought away immediately; Eilonwy didn’t have any eyes; but the darkness of her gaze was warm and inviting, an offering of peaceful sleep and friendship. But the darkness of his . . . their . . . eyes . . . was . . . were wrong. They had eyes, yes; but I wished they didn’t. Unlike Eilonwy and Mr. Ron and Miss Sarah and Hannah, they didn’t have souls. I could see it in their blank, stony looks. I don’t know if they had ever been human, I thought as I backed up a step. But I didn’t feel any desire to help them.
_____“You didn’t answer my question,” the red hoodied boy sneered, slamming his ball harder against the pavement. “I asked if you were scared. I asked if you wanted to play.”
_____“No,” my answer came immediately. My hands shifted, and I was alarmed to see the shadow creeping across the concrete field like clouds covering the entire city. The sun was still bright overhead, but its rays would not touch us.
_____“You should,” he scorned. “It’d be much easier that way.” I whipped my gaze to the children to my right and left. The balls were still bouncing in their hands, heartbeats hammering through chests. They clustered slowly together as if on the defensive. Hatred and bloodlust were stamped with each leap of each ball, the leather striking the concrete like sharpened knives stabbing into living flesh.
_____“We’ll make you a deal,” he started.
_____“No deals,” anger coiled and hissed in my chest, hot and searing and unfamiliar. I felt an urge to lash out at these . . .things masquerading as human children. Nothing good could come from associating with them. For a moment, I thought he nodded once, his chin tucked to his skinny chest and tilted to the side. It took another moment for me to realize his hesitance was due to his attention being focused elsewhere.
_____On me.
_____Because my hands were glowing; smoldering like hot coals. A roiling, rumbling drumroll was beating in my ears.
_____“You stay out of our way and we’ll stay out of yours,” the red hoodied boy offered as though I had agreed to listen to his terms. “It doesn’t have to come to a war. If we fight, it’ll probably end with all our deaths.”
_____“Get out of here,” I growled. They retreated, one by one.
_____“It doesn’t have to be this way,” he repeated, though he drew silent when a figure—a grownup—ambled through the space in the fence. Thankfully, my hands dimmed.
_____“Everything okay, you two?” he asked; I wondered why he didn’t say anything about the half dozen plus children slipping under his arm as he rested it on the fence; maybe they were like the black cat and the snake with wings.
_____The red hoodied boy nodded and paused next to the man, considering him with a mean look in his black eyes. When the boy looked back at me, with my eyes narrowed and my hands still fisted but not glowing, he left with the rest of the kids, bouncing his ball as we went along.
_____“Everything all right, young lady?” the man asked in concern, watching me. “You look angry.”
_____The shadow across the concrete field was already dissipating. I nodded and tried to smile. “Yes, thank you. Have a nice day, sir.”
_____But now I have a question for you guys, I guess. Now that I think about it again. What do you think happened there on the concrete field? What were they? The children, I mean?