In total no, I don't think it is either. but in some small part maybe.

I was going to do this last night, but unfortunately the storm took out my connection.

I don't know what is going on in that screwed up head of yours Holister, but it sounds like you need someone to change the dosage on your meds. I cannot believe for a second that the real Holister would abandon Molly, so I am calling bullshit. Either you are not Holister as you claim, or you are not yourself.

You claim to have achieved an enlightenment that puts you above us mere mortals, but it sounds like that you only managed find an excuse to wallow in self-pity. Even if he had achieved enlightenment, the first thing he would do is share it with his friends and family. And at the least, he would talk to Molly and explain to her why he is not going to be around for her anymore.

Do what you like.

If you need help with a just cause you know how to contact me.

Send plenty of details.

Holister wrote:Last time I checked, we have the God given right to freely address ur own opions openly.

Your right, and thats what we have been doing.

Holister wrote:The world does not care about our sacrifices, nor does it care about about what we do.

Which is why we hae to let them see, to make them understand. Unfortunately, without unrefutable proof we can't go to th masses, instead we need to work at the grass roots. Everyday more will understand and momentum will build. When we reach that point, that critical mass, we will begin our break into the mainstream.

What we are talking about is a cultural shift . . . those take time.

Holister wrote:They du us lunatics, crazy, and dangerous,

In some of our cases, this is probably right

Holister wrote:while it is us all the while attempting to save these closed minded beligigerant protopeds from their own apathy.

Every man has their limit, I have simply met mine. As for the rest of you, do as you wish, you are siply throwing your lives away n a worthless cause. Lazlo's dream died with him.

This message brought to you by Dele Morte.

Holister wrote:I don't need your approval or acceptance of my ideals, and beliefs, but they will be voiced none the less.

"Those who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones."

I thought a pots and kettles reference might be more appropriate here, but oh well.

Holister wrote:I is only a matter of time before those last few grains of sand pass through the hourglass on us, I would rather go my way and come to meet my maker on my own terms.

If you feel like checking out - go ahead - just leave us out of it.

Holister wrote:As I said, I still plan on fighting, I just chose a different war to fight in.

The one where you make sure those you care about are dead? Want me to put a bullet in Molly's brain for ya know or are you hoping somehting nasty grabs her and draws it out for you?

Hey Ron, I was going to comment, but you pretty much said it all.

ps, You're not telling Ei about this, are you?

Eilonwy has a screen-reader, and the right to know what's going on...

Ei, everyone else, this must be said.

Holly, WTF do you expect everyone to say, huh? You think you're gonna just have your moment of doubt and pain, and think we'll all be sunshine and lollipops for ya? Scrwe that bull.

You think you don't matter? Think we're all wasting our time and effort on some futile pursuit? Whatever, expect shit from people for it. They aren't keeping you from saying it, just disagreeing with you and worried about you.

Now, I don't know you, have never met you, and could give a damn if this is some attempt at attention, which most suicide threats are anyway. The fact that we're all writing so much about this proves it's working, though. But can't you see that you're just blowing off the only people who are trying to help? I've got nothing right now, no family, friends, home, anything. You have a family, friends who are getting pissed off, and have so much more going for you than your little doubts even begin to take into consideration.

You've got two options- 1) Get your head out of whatever oriface it's being crammed in, see everything for what it truly is, and try to get on with things, or 2) admit to everyone here that they mean nothing to you, your whole life is pointless, and just get it over with. You're still fighting, but you're fighting your own bullshit.

To everyone else, I'm sorry, but he can't go on like this. He'll either go, which I'm not sure about, or he'll keep this up until everyone is so filled with doubts that we all off ourselves. I won't let the few people who are trying to help me be taken down this way.

I believe that is called a Reality Check.

Just be sure you don't gun down any innocents.

Yeah, good for you. Don't expect too much from me, now that I'm Molly's primary caregiver I plan on slowing down with the fighting and going more into research

Who said anything about marrying?

I just can't go gallavanting around when I'm responsible for someone else.

Ben who the hell do you think took down those Satellites? Fate asked for help and he got it. People were there to help, but you did your own thing. You talk about teamwork and then ignore the fuck out of it.

Shadow, Logos, this is just what he wants. He's trying to take you guys down with him. Don't let his selfish attitude destroy your lives just because he's written off ever caring about others. He doesn't care about anyone else anymore, so what reason do you have for caring about him?

Hol, first, get my quotes right, second, shit or get off the pot.

Ben, we killed Dele Morte. I have now witnessed his death twice. And still he was out there.

So do whatever the hell you want... I tried being nice to you earlier; I not only got ignored, I got grouped in with everyone you "don't care about". I even still tried to stand up for you after that, and still I get ignored.

I said I respect you... I guess I respected you. I don't anymore. To hell with me? I've been there, several times. What's more, I put myself through it to help you more than once. At least one of those times I put myself in a full-body cast was saving you.

If that deserves your damning me...

I don't even know what to say to you. As I said, I respected you once, but the more I see of you now, the more sickened I become. You've lost it, man...

I know, I know. "Oh, I see so much more clearly now!" That's just proof of what my high school and college psych teachers taught me... It's almost impossible to accurately self-examine.

Fine, then... Don't expect my help if you ever need it again. I didn't ask for this shit; I damned sure don't deserve it.